Brown-Eyed Girl

I'm trying not to cry (again) as I write this. My little haitian princess is sleeping the blissful sleep of a happy child while tears are rolling down my face. We finally heard the final decision from the specialists...Johane is NOT a surgical candidate. The risk--benefit ratio is not favorable for any surgery. Her sight will not be restored by conventional methods. She will be returned to haiti with her blind eye and no improvement in her vision. There are very good reasons for this, but that doesn't stop the hurt. The desire of my heart was to see the miracle of sight for this little girl. That will not be happening in the way I had hoped. So I cry tears of grief tonight for a lost dream. The problem is mine.
Don't be misled...I love and trust God just as much as before AND I wouldn't trade away this journey for anything! I am very aware that the journey isn't over, we've just gone down a slope and are making a slow incline up another hill. (Roller coaster analogy) The next hill will probably be a doozie.
As you may have noticed, Johane is sleeping very well tonight. Her dream has been fullfilled. She had TWO brown eyes tonight for 4 full hours. She has a picture of herself with two brown eyes, taken at Dr. Housers office. She diligently practiced with another contact until she could put it in and take it out all by herself. NO small feat for an 8 year old with NO depth perception. She had to do this multiple times and was just getting frustrated past endurance, when she succeeded for the 3rd time. NOW lets use the brown (maroon) one. She quivered with excitement, bit her lip and carefully practiced the skill she had been working on. SUCCESS !
The MIRROR! Garde! Garde! (Look! Look!) Her smile lit up the room. They took her picture and showed it to her on the computer. Then put the before and after side by side. NO! LA! (No , not that one...the new one!) Preeety (pretty), Mwen. (Me)
She wore it for the full 4 hours. She is so happy. She knows she is returning to her family in haiti on April 19th. She will be traveling with people that she loves and trusts. She will be there for her 9th birthday (with her twin). AND SHE IS HAPPY.
God fullfilled the wishes and dreams of an 8 year old Haitian child without surgery. He has touched hearts all across the country with the story of a little half blind little girl. He has increased the awareness of the needs of His children in Haiti. He has taught us all about dirt cookies. He may have purposes for this little lady's visit that I haven't even dreamed of. And He has blessed my home and life with an 8 year olds example of sharing all that you have.
GOD IS GOOD...ALL THE TIME. So why was I crying?
Tears of Joy maybe to be blessed enough to share in the adventure of a lifetime. Her smile and the twinkle in her eye, the loving care of her brown contact was enough to dry any tears. Praise God from whom all blessings flow!
Make sure you're buckled up tight...the next hill ought to be a fun one.
Cynthia